The Diagnosis

Almost a year ago, August 17, 2012 to be exact, my husband and I sat together in a small , cozy waiting room , waiting to be called into my surgeons office to discuss the pathology results of my excisional biopsy ( in laymans terms , she removed a lump from my breast) that she had performed a few days prior.... On Wings of Faith is a documentary of sorts , to be compiled together for my 4 children and I welcome you aboard to read along.

So without further ado, here goes...

A tumult of thoughts and emotions swirl through me tonight.
My journey in this life has taken an unplanned, unwanted, unforeseen detour off of the rose strewn path I was walking on, oh certainly at times the trail didn't seem very rosy, flowers wilted and thorns of discontentment and disappointment pricked here and there. But nothing, outside of my Dad's death 11 years ago , has felt like this huge thorn does, that really as of yet I'm not feeling.I'm still being carried on the waves of shock and disbelief.

After M and I  left the Doctors office and had a semblance of composure ,we went to Wendy's so my starving man could eat , I'm not even sure if I ate or not, than off to Wally World .Yes, even in the midst of cancer, life has to go on. While M went in to grab the items we needed. I made the dreaded call to my Mom.How it hurt me that she would again be a bystander to the dreaded c- word. Than texted the news to all my close, dear friends , I've been blessed with in this life.

I sit here knowing it is truth yet still not believing that it is ME. I have breast cancer??? ME ??? The pink ribbon will forever have a different meaning in my life.