Today marks the one year anniversary of swallowing my first dreaded tiny little white pill ,that will be part of my life for the next couple years.As I read and researched the daunting list of side effects, I decided if the hormone therapy itself doesn't do the job of protecting me from a recurrence of cancer than the warnings of all the potential mishaps in and of itself is enough to scare any cancer cells straight out of me.

Thankfully , I know some people that have taken the med for the allotted 5 yrs and came out of it none worse for the wear , with no serious side effects. And since my Dad had been on a experimental drug while he was fighting cancer, I knew that any  adverse reaction or health malady that happens has  to be listed as a possible side effect .

So I reluctantly downed the pill , that would be a constant reminder everyday for the next years and mutter and grouse underneath my breath while taking it. The first couple weeks were pretty rocky, nausea , dizziness , horrible headaches everyday for 3 weeks straight along with chills. No hot flashes here , only chills , which I think must be just as bad in a different way. I would pile on layers of clothes and still be cold. As time went on my body evidently adapted to the new interloper , but not the thinking part of me , oh no . I developed quite an attitude towards this wee pill, that is here to help me , especially when I gained 7lbs in a 6 week timeframe!! Now I was super ticked  but no amount of cajoling and pleading with my oncologist to take me off helped. This med is a weight gaining med , and it is very difficult to lose pounds while on it.One evening I was so discouraged about the weight gain, I texted some of my friends asking them to pray about it , around the same time I also went on a natural weight controlling pill ( approved by my team of docs) Currently I eat more and workout less than I did , at the time I was gaining ...the one doc that I saw today, said she thinks running after my kids gives me all the exercise I need :-) they certainly do keep me on my toes!!! And  I am 9lbs lighter than I was on the day I sent my SOS text !!!!God cares,  and answers prayers about the little stuff that seems like big stuff to us !!

The past few months I have actively tried to imagine all the good this pill is working inside of me and think of it as a friend that is here to help me for a season . I still have occasional bouts of headaches and nausea, but all in all nothing to complain about , when you look at the big picture of  life. But I do know I will whoop,holler,jump,dance, sing, do cartwheels, aahh, think I will let the kiddos do the cartwheels on second thought,anyways you get the idea, there is gonna be a celebration of some kind in 2017!